Thursday, June 26, 2014

Rolled Down.

This is a short piece I had written for some other blog a long long time ago.

She startled me . I dropped my Mocha. That was the last thing I needed after a long day.
I was furious and did not want to spare a single rupee for a smelly street urchin who had ruined my perfect coffee .
She wasn't among the ones who give up easily. She persisted. I screamed at her . The loudest I ever had.
I sat back in my car . Rolled up the window . She spat on the window.

She had second thoughts about ruining a perfect Sunday and spending a day in a remote village teaching kids.
Sure she had always wanted to do this . She found about ASHA a month ago.
Now there she was . A hot day . She wished for rain , so that they would cancel the whole thing.
But she knew it wouldn't.

I had detailed and washed my car just the other day . I was furious.

They were all of the 20 kids. Some of them bored .Some of them eager . Some of them just glad that they didn't have to work that day.
She was struggling to think of a Hindi word for 'addition' .And then
one of the kids asked her (in Hindi) ... Does everyone in your house love you?
No one had asked her that before. It was always a given .She realized though, that she couldn't ignore it like she would ignore a rhetoric . She replied yes and asked the kid , "Aur Tumhe?"
"Haan agar Ghar hota to jaroor pyar karte , didi" .

I rolled down the window . She spat on me.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Never worked a single day in my life!

My 10 minute commute to work presents a first world dilemma . Which radio station to tune in to.
You can almost predict which song is going to play next on the hip hop channels.
Its a hit or miss on the rock channels.

On one hand we have the NPR/BBC radio channel . African and Middle Eastern conflicts provide enough fodder for a couple of hours of airtime.On the other hand , we have the conservative talk shows rocking the AM like never before.

Conservative Talk shows ? Rush Limbaugh to be precise. I often listen to him . Makes me draw parallels with the Indian political scene. Folks with liberal leanings would find him to be a hate monger. And he does that , spread hate that is . Him and his type  mostly talk about how great USA once was . How it ruled the world and was a bastion of Individual freedom .It still is . But times have changed . What goes up must come down. Toning down the Capitalism rhetoric perhaps is need of the day.

I as an immigrant do not sympathize with his kind. Because I don't have anything to lose. Whatever I had , I already left behind 8 years ago.I try to tread carefully on the well tarred American roads. Whereas back home , even though the roads were full of potholes , those were mine. I cared.

If I were an immigrant in India I would absolutely hate the Saffron Brigade , the Shiv Sena... MNS. They are worthy of all the hate they receive ,that I agree.But somewhere deep inside I root for them. Coz my selfish self likes the fact that they hold up the interest of my community .. the one I cherish.

And So I think about Rush....

Anyways , the point was I did NOT tune into Rush the other day . It was Tony Bennet on NPR.I am not a fan . But I have heard his name a number of times. And I know he sings rat packesque songs.

He said something interesting .... He said ' I am lucky , I haven't worked a single day in my life'.
I envy him. 

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Cold Beer and a Sunny Day

The other day we cashed a check at home . Yes , at home.Simply scanned the check via the phone camera and deposited it in the bank, online!I knew that people have been doing this for a while now. However it never fascinated me as much till I got down to doing it myself.It is because I have not hated anything more than actually going down to the bank and depositing a check.

I have not set foot in a bank in years ( read 2 :p) . Honestly , I have never been a people person. Even calling Customer Service on the phone irks me. I 'd rather chat with them online. And the with the advent of social media, cutting edge mobile phones... absolutely everything comes home on my palm sized Android Phone .

Things are moving pretty fast around me.You don't want to get left behind nor do you want to leave anything behind. Tricky world.Carrying the burden of dreams of aspirations definitely muffle the skip and hop you were looking forward to.I think I need a cold beer and a Sunny Day.And its not even Friday!

Monday, May 03, 2010

What Happened .. Happened

This is one of the most used lines in 'LOST' . If you don't really follow 'LOST',it could be a bit misleading , This is not a poswt about LOST . But there is a point I wish to make .
'Whatever Happened .. Happened' . We can try to change our past( thats possible only in LOST !) , however nature finds a way to lead us to the same destination... no matter what path you take .

Let us put this in the context of a 'normal' life. We are not zipping through time and parallel universes.But it still makes sense.
Now it would be too brazen to say that there is never ever a choice. But I think nature has a funny way of nudging us towards things which are destined to happen :) . Now I do not particularly base this upon any life changing events in my life. Just the little everyday happenings.

Well.. ok... there have been a few life changing events in my life which appeared to be accidental . I look back now and see a pattern . But then I would never want to make the mistake of assuming that one cannot change whats going to happen .
We definitely can .But if you are tired of wrestling life at every step ... no harm in sitting back and watch it do its thing . It will never be too long before you spot a shooting star as you lay on your back staring at a clear starlit sky on a warm night.

Wednesday, December 09, 2009


I can't believe I am listening to Himesh Songs from his latest flick Radio . The songs are not half bad actually.They sound non Himesh .Although I am not joining his fanclub on facebook .
Supposedly he had himself operated and now he has two voices .. one nasal and one non-nasal( if thats a word! ) . And am I supposed to know this ? I will confess I occasionally love to take a sneak peek at Bollywood gossip . Not that I have left the hollywood gossip behind. is my friend .
I still need to find out if Khloe Kardhashian is still happily married to Lamar Odom.Coz I did spot Odom in Vegas few months ago and frankly i don't know how Khloe Kardashian looks , but he was there with a girl .One of my drunk friends went up to him and said hi . She doesn't even watch Basketball !

For now I am romancing the city of Bombay .More Bridges , more money and more friends getting hitched .I needed this break . I love San Diego , but i need to change a few of my equations with the city . To Bombay , San Diego and Me.

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

I've been around for a little over 20 years

I love songs about growing up.I love it when the Title of this Blog is asserted so strongly .Jon Mclaughlin , about my age . Glad I am can relate to people my age, and tolerate the others ;)
The Song is called 'The Middle' from the album 'OK Now'
I love the album name. It just sucks the possible melodrama from a lessons learnt sermon.Haven't heard the rest of the album , but I hope it lives upto this one.

Here it goes
I've been around for a little over 20 years
And to anyone who needs advice on getting here
Don't ask me, the path I took was not exactly by the book, by the book
I was too young to know and too dumb to figure out
That you can lose yourself in all this traveling around
When you reach a point of no return losing touch with lessons learned, lessons learned
Let me tell you now where i went wrong
Hollywood is just another place I don't belong

Let's go to the middle where time stands still
Let's get lost in those hills
Live a little closer to what is true
I'll be me and you be you

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Multiple Choice

He1: I don't think I can understand women ... or maybe can't get through to them
He2: Dude... is this going to be one of those cliched toilet seat conversation ... thats shit man ... all that mars venus garbage ... all bull.
He1: We like to judge everything and everyone around us ... but when we have to live through it ... wait i guess we call that hypocrisy ... yeah thats the word
He2: I hate that word... though it suits this situation , it has a very negative connotation to it.
He1: Ok Mr. Psychologist ...
He2: I don't care man .. u r the one who started this.
He1: You are missing the point.
He2 : Its simple, its a human trait ... and unfortunately we have promptly labelled it with a spiteful word .
He2 : Its like that line from the movie 'Crash' - "You think you know who you are .. you have no idea" . I love conversations where i can quote from Crash ...
He1: I am generally very afraid when things come to the point .. where I can't make sense of anything. You beg , you ask , you demand ... its like hitting your head against a stonewall.
He2: Dude.. I am just your alter Ego.. if you don't have multiple choice questions for me... I am as good as your overflowing wastebasket .

Monday, July 13, 2009


What a kickass song from the movie Kaminey . The song i am talking about is 'Kaminey' . What talent ... Gulzar and Vishal Bharadwaj actually use the word Kaminey in an extremely heartfelt song ... I am hooked ...

[Kya kare zindagi
isko hum jo miley
iski jaan kha gaye
raat din ke giley ] - 2
raat din giley

meri aarzoo... kameenee
mere khwab bhi... kaminey
ik dil se dosti thi
yeh hazoor bhi... kaminey
Kya kare zindagi
isko hum jo miley
iski jaan kha gaye
raat din ke giley

[kabhi zindagi se maanga
pinjare mein chand la do
kabhi lalten de ke
kaha aasma pe taango ] - 2
jeene ke sab kareene
the hamesha se kaminey
kaminey, kaminey, kaminey, kaminey

meri dastaan... kameenee
mere raaste... kaminey
ik dil se dosti thi
yeh hazoor bhi... kaminey

jiska bhi chehra chila
andar se aur nikla
masoom sa kabootar
naacha toh mor nikla
kabhi hum kaminey nikle
kabhi dosti kameenee
kaminey, kaminey, kaminey, kaminey

meri dositi... kameenee
mere yaar bhi... kaminey
ik dil se dosti thi
yeh hazoor bhi... kaminey

Thursday, July 09, 2009


Did I mention i finally got an iphone ? Well its been a while .
My Life has changed. Why ? Its Shazam .
The daily ritual in my car while I drive to work was to start the radio.
Anytime a song played which I like , i would switch the record mode on my Nokia 6682 . Mind you the recording wasn't too great . I would go home , strain my ears to figure what song was it. Once I catch a few words, google the lyrics and find the song. :).
But now all you have to do is start shazam , let it listen to the song , it gives the name , cover album and hell yeah even the youtube link to the song. Life is good.
Life is getting simpler.
Really ?ummm ... somewhere else... a new problem is lurking. I am growing up. I gotta do things which if I don't do know .. i will regret later. Suddenly I stop, look back, look ahead and wonder how am I supposed to figure this out. Then I look around , whoz done and how . . I judge absolutely everyone around me and choose who I want to be . I just want to cruise along .. and then maybe suddenly shake things up ... do my thang ...

In the meanwhile me shall groove to the Madcon remix of Frankie Valli's 'Beggin' .... beggin beggin please....

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Both Sides Now

I just saw the season finale of House M.D. a few hours ago . They called it 'Both Sides Now' . I had heard the song a long time ago . It was good to find it again .
A wonderful song by Joni Mitchell . Though i first heard it as a cover by Neil Diamond . His version is my favorite :).

Here it goes :
Rows and flows of angel hair, and icecream castles in the air, and feathered canyons everywhere,
I've looked at clouds that way,
but now they only block the sun.
They rain and snow on everyone.
So many things I would have done,
but clouds got in my way.

I've looked at clouds from both sides now,
from up and down, and still somehow,
it's clouds illusions I recal.
I really don't know all.

Moons and Junes and ferris wheels, the dizzy dancing way you feel
as every fairy tale comes real; I've looked at love that way.
But now it's just another show. You leave 'em laughing when you go
and if you care, don't let them know, don't give yourself away.

I've looked at love from both sides now,
from give and take, and still somehow
it's love's illusions I recall.
I really don't know love at all.

Tears and fears and feeling proud, to say "I love you" right out loud,
dreams and schemes and circus crowds, I've looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads,
they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now,
from win and lose, and still somehow
it's life's illusions I recall.
I really don't know life at all.